Today I am having a rough day. I don't have very many because I normally try to stay very positive and optimistic. Waiting is hard and sometimes it just gets to me. I feel sorry for myself and wonder why am I having to wait so long. Everyone else gets to have a baby easily and some couples only wait a few months before receiving the call. I know I've only been waiting for four months with the agency but it has actually been closer to six years of wanting to start a family.

I know there is no need to get all worked up about our future because I have no control over it but sometimes its difficult. I can't help the fact that I want a baby now not a year from now. The only thing I can do is continue to pray and pray really hard. I have to remember that God will not lay more on my plate than I can handle but sometimes I wonder if I can actually handle this. I know that tomorrow will be better and I will continue to stay busy and before I know it I will have a child of my own. Until then I am just laying around the house feeling sorry for myself. Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband who understands and allows me to have these days.

I am going to be very selfish and ask that you keep me in your prayers!

But if we hope for what is still unseen by us, we wait for it with patience and composure. Romans 8:25

Today was really nice. This morning I woke up early and attended two classes at the YMCA. Then I came home and cleaned up the house for a small party I am having tomorrow afternoon. Bryan was gone all day racing his RC car and it was nice having the day to myself.

My friend Whitney and her daughter Emery came to visit this afternoon for a couple of hours. They live about an hour away so we don't get to see each other as much as we would like. I can't believe Emery is already 9 months old. Whitney and I have been friends since the fourth grade. We had a wonderful visit!

Roxy had an exhausting day!

Tonight Bryan and I went to eat Chinese and decided to stay around the house. We both have had a busy day and just wanted to relax.

October 15, 2010

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

This is a special day of remembrance for me because of the four miscarriages I have had. I know that I never held these babies or even got to feel them but I still miss them everyday. They were special to Bryan and I and will never be forgotten.

Please say a prayer for anyone who has suffered through a pregnancy loss or lost an infant in their lives. There are many people who I know that have experienced this pain. All of you are in my prayers today.

Happy Anniversary Bryan!

Today Bryan and I have been married for 8 years. I love how our relationship has grown into something wonderful. We have gotten better with age and have the most fun together. I am so excited about our future together. Everyday I feel so lucky because I married my best friend.

I love you!

Today we took the sixth graders to the Renaissance Festival. It was a wonderful field trip! The kids were wonderful and behaved very well. I love the food and the people at the festival. They stay true to character the whole time! Their costumes are elaborate and their accents are great. The guy below was a camera hog!

Weekend Recap

As usual this weekend has flown by. Friday night I wasn't feeling that great. I think it was just allergies but they can still slow you down. My mom had surgery on her foot Friday afternoon, so Friday night we went to visit her for a little while. She is doing good but is probably getting bored sitting around the house. Bryan and I just grabbed some dinner and stayed at home for the rest of the night.

Saturday morning Bryan and I got up and went to Lowes to get a new front storm door. Bryan put it up and it looks great!

Also on Saturday I cleaned up and organized the nursery. I had not even put away my gifts since the shower. I also washed the clothes and blankets so they are ready.

Last night, Bryan and I went shopping and ate some sushi for dinner. Our anniversary is Tuesday, so we celebrated a little early.

This morning we went to my friend Ashley's church because they had their baby Aiden dedicated. It was a great service and I was honored to be a part of this special day. Now I am just laying around the house watching the Panthers lose the game. Oh well!

I hope everyone has a great week!

Today's Prayer

I was reading my daily devotion and the daily prayer was:

I praise your holy name, Lord Jesus. And I pray that you will help me today to remember that you have a plan for me and that there is a path all cleared and ready for me to follow. In your precious name I pray. Amen

This was just another reminder that God has a plan for me. He will guide me to do what I am suppose to do in my life. Again, this is not always easy but I am trying to be very patient.

Happy Sunday

So I just realized that I have not posted all week long. Really not much has been going on but I have been really busy! Do you know what I mean? This past week flew by because school was busy everyday and then I had meetings and workshops after school. Plus I went to the YMCA to workout every evening. By the time I got home, I crashed!

This weekend we have just been hanging out around the house. My house is decorated for fall with pumpkins and mums inside and out!







Sunday service was really good today. We had homecoming and a past preacher delivered the service. He did a great job and preached a meaningful service. Following the service, the whole church ate a wonderful meal together. Now we are watching football (Go Panthers!) and preparing for a small cookout tonight. Our friends Scott and Angela are coming over and bring their new baby Braeden. He is already 7 weeks old!

Maybe this week will be a little bit more interesting! I hope everyone has a great week! Happy Sunday!