5 Months 2 Weeks....

Waiting is hard and there isn't a day or hour that goes by when I don't imagine our baby or think about the "the call."  Filling my days and trying to stay upbeat can be exhausting at times.  For the most part, I continue on with my day to day activities and try to enjoy life right now.  Some days I am really down and some days I am grateful for this time that Bryan and I have alone to enjoy each other.

Having said all of that....I can't believe it's already been 5 months and 2 weeks of waiting for Bryan and I.  Honestly, it has flown by!  Everyday I tell myself that I am one day closer to our baby and that surely it will happen sooner than later.  Our lives have been wonderful during this waiting time.  We have been remodeling a house, traveling, and doing lots of fun things together but I can't wait for the two of us to become three.  There are moments of jealously of all of my friends who have babies but for the most part I try to stay positive.  I really feel blessed that Bryan and I have been chosen to go through this experience.  My faith is getting stronger and stronger everyday and I have this adoption process to thank for that.

Funny thing happened tonight.  The waiting game has been on my mind all day today.  I have been thinking things like why hasn't a birth mother chosen us yet?  Is there something wrong with us?  Should we change some things on our profile? I even sent an email to our case worker just to check in and see if there was anything we should be doing.  Just a few moments ago I checked our agency blog and there was a post titled why are we waiting?  I honestly believe that post was for me because it gave me the encouragement that God truly is in control, not the agency.  I already knew that but sometimes it helps to be reminded! Bryan and I don't need to change a thing because when our time is right, the perfect child will enter our family.  Until then, we will just continue to wait in faith.

Have a great week!